Cryptocurrency, blockchain, centralized, decentralized, liquidity, swaps and the list of unfamiliar terms goes on and on. It’s enough to make your head spin.
With all these terms, where do we start?
Well first, let’s back up a bit. I think before we unwind all these foreign concepts, terms and theories we should start with the most basic questions: how did we get here and why do we want to know?
If you are like me, you have come to realize the daunting truth that your life is missing something. The cold reality of waking up every morning to live the same day over and over again, slaving away at a job for a paycheck to live. Knowing somewhere in you that there is more. Finding the strength to acknowledge the fact that it’s not going away. Being honest with the fact that unless you want to wake up every morning feeling the same way, you will have to do something about it.
For me, this is where my cryptocurrency life began. I however did not know at the time it would lead me to where I am now, it did however get me to be honest with myself and come to terms with what I truly wanted out of life.
I was always raised to be in service, service to my family, to my community and most importantly, in service to God. I however never learned to be into service to myself. I never even considered that to be a thing and if the thought of taking a little for myself before giving it to others popped into my mind, I would immediately push the idea away and shame myself for being selfish. This tug of war went on for years and no matter how much I tried to convince myself I was doing everything right, that I was a good person and that I should be grateful for all that I had, there was still something missing.
I lived a life believing that money did not play an important role in this equation. That people were the key to happiness. That by faith and good works alone would and could provide the rest. Boy of boy I was wrong. To make matters worse, not only was I wrong, but I had also missed what God was trying to teach me. He was leading me in the direction I needed to go but because I refused to face money, what it is, what it means, what role it plays and how to apply it to life. I remained stuck in a vicious pattern of working my ass off because I needed it, only to get it and do my best to get rid of it as fast as I could.
Not only did I have to wake myself of the delusion, but I had to become honest with the fact that I hated it and downright lived everyday resenting it. Not only for needing it but because it had so much control of my life and the life of my family.
42 years of struggle lead to, well let’s just say, not one of my best moments in life. I was sitting in the parking lot of a job I hated. Screaming at the top of my lungs “I hate you” to a paycheck. Yep, that was where I was in life, yelling at paper, expecting it to apologize for the inconvenience of having to be picked up on my day off.
I must have looked crazy. But in that grown ass temper tantrum in front of God and everyone, I realized something extremely profound. It wasn’t money that was the problem, it was me. I didn’t understand it, I didn’t give it the relevance that it deserved, nor did I appreciate the psychological hold it had on me. I never accepted it as part of my life. I allowed it to be this dirty little thing, something so taboo and unclean that I had been spending my entire life running away from it.
Feeling like a complete ass, yet still very faithful. I raised my hands up in the air and said to the man upstairs, “now what in hell am I supposed to do with that”. Knowing that message so up close, personal and very painful epiphany was from Him.
But just as faith would have it, He answered.
While driving home, I decided to put on some music to distract me. I need some Michael Jackson in my life, his song “Rock with You” always puts me in a great mood. I Youtube’d that bad boy up and proceeded to head home. As the song came to an end, I was feeling like my old self and ready to conquer the world again. Then a funny thing happened, instead of playing the next song as designed, it cued up a very odd video that had no relevance to my preference list.
The title read, “The Philosophy of Bitcoin and How it Could Change the World as We Know It”. I had no idea why this was on my phone but within the first minute the words “what is money” range through my ears.
Holy shit, the Man upstairs was listening and not only was He listening, He answered me!
In that moment, I had forgiven myself, forgiven money and decided to make amends and accept a healthy relationship with it. It was also where my cryptocurrency journey began.
That one video not only changed my mindset but led me to a hunger to learn more. It led me to community, partnerships and a true pursuit for freedom.
I have been in cryptocurrency for a little over a year now, and if this story sounds anything like yours, just know you are being called to a higher purpose. You are a pioneer helping pave the way for generations to come and helping to form the foundations of finance freedom for all that come after us.
Be proud of yourself, it wasn’t easy to get here. Also know that I’m proud of you too, not only for taking the leap of faith but for having the courage to want something more.
Welcome as we Journey to the Future together.
Nichole, aka MissLadySwatt